Friend or Stranger?

A friend of mine sent me the new Carps E.P. and damn....it has been on ever since Monday night. I cannot get over how much they are impressing me with every new release that they put out.

As for this blog, I do not really have a muse; there is nothing that is truly bothering me. I am at a mind state right now in nirvana. A simple place of euphoric elements is what I am feeling right now. It is great that I finally am moving out of my place with my roommate to finally have my own place. The freedom to do what I want, when I want and not have to hear any lip from anyone will be a great feeling indeed. I have thought very intensively about the things in my life that have come to dust as of late and I do not have the same feeling of sorrow or loss like I once had before for years in the past. I would normally feel extremely hurt and often ponder on things and people that were not worthy of my train of thought in the first place. Crying over spilled milk is a thing of the past; it had become a personal trait of mine all too often. It had become a part of my daily make-up as a person, and it seems to have evaporated from my personal and daily life.

Is a friend somewhat that you have to contact more often than they do you; is a friend someone that talks to you when it is only acceptable on their time? Is a friend someone that expects you to be the one to carry a conversation; is a friend a person that is nonchalant in their demeanor when you are dead serious about something? Is a friend someone that you speak to quite often then disappears for days at a time; is a friend someone that hides behind their smiles, jeers, and jokes? Exactly...that's not a friend at all; it's a stranger.

Back To You.

This weekend was a very blessed one, if I might say so myself. I had to get off of this Eastern Shore of Maryland, so I decided to go to Baltimore to see a few of my friends. The long three-hour Greyhound bus ride Friday night was definitely worth it. Being able to spend, enjoy, and live my life with friends; now that is the true essense of life. That moment of being with someone that you find intriguing and that also excites you; that is what life is made with. Those subliminal reasons for being around your friends because they bring out the best in you and you bring out the best in them; that is what I live for. That is why I am blessed. I thank God for seeing every waking moment when the Sun bursts through my blinds. That first breath of fresh air going through my nostrils and mouth and filling up my lungs; that's what I enjoy the most. We do things such as breathing automatically and take these things for granted. Walking being also one of these gifts that we take for granted as well. But, I pray that I never take these gifts for granted again.

Traveling that far to see friends a year earlier would've been the last thing on my mind. But, I am glad and blessed that my lifestyle is starting to evolve from the selfish young man that I was before into a more wise and spiritual young man. It's interesting and even ironic how even in the event of tragedy, I have found solace within myself to become a more thoughtful man. No longer the selfish kid (well...at times...baby steps...).

God, I'm so thankful!!