James Dean! I have never truly understood why I have a slight admiration for James Dean. I have two posters and a switchblade that my ex-girlfriend bought me for my twentieth b-day of him. It’s just interesting how this man died fifty-two years ago, but I find him completely intriguing. The only film I own that he was in is “Rebel Without A Cause,” but there’s something that is unbelievably infectious about this guy. He personified cool; he still does even now today. Sometimes I glaze at my posters of him and say, “Damn, this guy reminds me of myself!” He was one hell of an actor! If there was anyone (dead or alive) that I could have the opportunity to meet, it would be James Dean.

Definitive Swim

Definitve Jux (an independent hip hop record label) teamed up with Cartoon Network's "Adult Swim" to put this mixtape together. It has a collection of songs on it by Def Jux artists such as Rob Sonic, Mr. Lif, El-P, etc.

I think they did a really good job putting it together. It is also a FREE download at the Definitive Jux website. If you are into hip-hop not infused with the typical "money, cash and drugs" format, this would be a great add to your music collection.

http://store.definitivejux.net/store/index.htm

Gentrification

This process of gentrification is going on throughout the whole world and is a very sad thing that seems to be killing the "Mom & Pop" shops and replacing them with Starbucks, Chitoples, Best Buys, Olive Gardens, Chilis, etc...

Not only is it pushing people out of their lives (neighborhoods), but it is also destroying their memories just so venture capitalists can build these yuppie establishments that have no sense of culture whatsoever! It really pisses me off that people are subliminally supporting this yuppie movement that's destroying people's individuality and originality since now you no longer have the choice of Jerry's Diner, Regina's, etc. (independent stores), but now you have to choose from Chili's or Applebee's.


















Links on this subject:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gentrification

http://members.lycos.co.uk/gentrification/

http://comm-org.wisc.edu/papers2000/gentrify/figs.htm

No Cancun For Moi!

Spring break...so...I was supposedly going to Vegas with a friend, but every time I ask about the reservations, he has no idea what I am talking about. Another lame ass spring break! I was better off making plans on going to Atlanta to see my friend at his college, or going to Houston to see my friends down that way.

I have no idea where I am going for Spring Break, and it begins next Friday!!!

Any suggestions?

Hell...if I had the money, I would fly back home to California for the week and catch up on somethings with friends and family. A drive down to So Cal to go see some friends at their various campuses would be nice.

I wish I would've known this two weeks ago, then I would've bought a plane ticket to Houston, Atlanta, or Cali. Oh well!

Overstaying My Welcome

So I'm sitting here in the middle of my room watching my fingers race at this keyboard trying to understand why I am so uncertain with what I am to be doing with my life currently. Why does this thing called "college" seem like a big waste of time? I realize that receiving a degree would be a great accomplishment, but something in me just doesn't have the drive to want to finish. I think that maybe travelling over 3,000 miles to this college in the remote rural land of Maryland from the lively urban California is becoming more than displeasing. I have thought that maybe going back to California to complete my degree might be a great thing for me to do after I have realized that my graduation date has yet extended back another semester. It was projected for this December of this year of 2007, but it's looking more like May of 2008. I am already 22 years old and I feel like I am much too old to be here fraternizing with such young and puerile kids running about this campus, all hormone-raged and such. I was fine with being here at the age of 20, but now at this somewhat stale age of 22, the campus life thing is becoming a bit mundane and annoying. Getting drunk on the weekends for some sort of self-escapism from the bowels of this humdrum campus is getting a tad bit annoying.

Alas! There maybe is hope for me, yeah? Maybe if I sit here and attempt to search for some sort of solace within myself, I can find the driving factor that will give me the ambition to get the hell out of here. Yes! Now that would assuredly be great; yes, sir it would be nice.

I guess that grad school abroad will have to wait a few more semesters, yeah? It's okay; I need to prepare myself for what's beyond the Atlantic anyway.

"My Greek letters make me cool!"

I woke up this morning to get ready to go to the gym at 7:15 like usual when I stumbled upon a "cousin of mine's" Face book page. Well..she's not really my cousin...hell...we don't even get along! But, anyways, I noticed that she is a part of the Order of the Eastern Star. It startled me a bit to see that a woman so brilliant (book-smart) could be easily manipulated into becoming a mason. I hope she knows what she's gotten herself into.

If only most of the people that join college fraternities and sororities knew that they are also masons by joining these various Greek orders. But, rather than look beyond the bright colored paraphernalia (tee-shirts, key chains, etc.) and "cool kids" that are part of these orders, they actually need to research who founded these Greek organizations.

"But we have benefits...I can find a job right after college."

Yeah, that's fine, but why would you want to join any organization that does everything in secrecy? Why would you want to join an organization that makes you do things you don't want to do during your pledging "Rush" time-period? Does putting a brand on your arm like cattle really make you feel any better?

All I say is that, people need to look beyond the propaganda of positive things these organizations do and actually look at the history of how these organizations were started. Most fraternities, orders, and sororities are masonic! Research it yourself!

Here's a few links:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Masonic_organizations

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fraternal_organization

Journal Entry Numero Quatre (4)

I guess sometimes it's better to leave even the closest friends (so you thought) dead in the back of your mind. I wish there was a way I could throw this old friend of mine out of my mind and bury the very thought of even knowing them in a garden far off from here. Sink this ship of bullshit that still attacks my mental waves of happiness. This ship of piracy that brings dark, damp catatrosphic waves and even a hurricane that attacks my mind. Like I wrote in my blog about my confessions, I can become parasitic, but I didn't realize that the "friend" stayed around because she couldn't figure out a way to let it go.

I guess that leaving when my cousin dies was perfect timing, but I truly know that wasn't your intent. You just seen it as a way to runaway from the fake friendship in the first place. It wasn't viable to keep you around; now this, I realize. It was more of a waste of time. I can't sit here and say I'm not sad that we couldn't be adults and look beyond the bullshit. but, like you said, our whole existence amongst each other was bullshit. I tried to be honest with this broad, but sometimes I tread that thin thread of honesty and bluntness. No one ever said that life was far. But, don't expect me to be happy for you, and say that things will be happy for me too. I don't want your pity.

Keep your "friends" (well, I guess not a friend at all) at a distance.

But anyways, on a lighter note, I will have a message board/forum up very soon. Give me about a week or so. I will have the site up. I hope that all of you reading this right now will take the time and get an account on the forum.

Thanks!

We love you, Zip Coon! You make me Laugh!

"Another version is called "Natchez Under the Hill". The lyrics are thought to have been added to an earlier tune by Bob Farrell who first performed them in a black face act on August 11, 1834.
A satirical version has appeared as:

Do your balls hang low do they wobble to and fro'?
Can you tie them in a knot?
Can you tie them in a bow?
Can you throw them o'er your shoulder like a Continental soldier Do your balls hang low? "

An excerpt from Wikipedia.com about "Zip Coon," a minstrel show character used to stereo type black males during the 1800's. You can see this stereotype of Zip Coon even in today's movies, TV shows and even music videos. If the stereotype of Zip Coon is for the degradation of blacks, then why did commercial rapper, Jibbs (a black man), make a song called "Chain Hang Low" in 2006 using the same melody of the verse above to rap about jewelry? Sad! The verse above from "Natchez Under The Hill," was popularized in today's society being played in your neighborhood ice cream truck repeatedly, and sung in campfire songs such as "Dirty Bill" for all of your children to sing and remember by the tender ages of seven.

Shake hands with the character (stereotype) Zip Coon!


Notice how flashy of a dresser he is. You can see "Zip Coon" in today commercial rap music videos as well...

Check out these links!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zip_Coon
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magical_negro
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ethnic_stereotypes_in_American_media
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jump_Jim_Crow
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pickaninny

Mental Freestyle Part Un (1)

I wrote this poem on the 9th of February of this year, 2007. I was listening to a playlist of eclectic songs and I put fragmented pieces of the lyrics in this poem in the beginning of it. You can tell that by the middle of the poem that my viewpoint totally changed like it normally does when I write. Any comments, questions, or ridicule would be gratefully appreciated via AIM, Yahoo!, MSN, or e-mail. Thank you! Please do subscribe to this page as well and tell your friends or anyone that you may think might be interested in my writings. Even if you think they might not be interested, it might be a good thing for them to read on my page. Thanks!

2.9.07

It's too late

For the better

Frail dreams of stormy weather

Never stable

But think provocatively

Never waiting of your response

At a distant glance

I asked four times for a chance

Misleadings I have feel behind

Blowing the planets out of alignment

Grabbing the Moon and burying it

Within my closet

But only to see that I have

Darkened the sky for all to bleed

The planes mistaken for stars

Blowin' up in the sky

But then to remark the catastrophe

But yes a travesty

Further events seen as a tragedy

All the dreams we've left behind

To bury them in our gardens

Falling fast asleep without solace or glee

Thank you for dishardment of heart

Two more years

Another view isn't seen

Golden reefs beyond the sea

Atlantis waiting to blow up the Earth

Babylon spite the U.S.

Disregarding the civilians

Women infertile

Men amongst reptiles

Alienating the truth

The core of the Earth is hollow

Believe me, believe so

You worship paganistic symbols

MK Ultra repetitive images in dreams

Programming us for the next day

Lead me, Father for I want

To help my people

Destroy the genocide displayed

Upon us

Unveiling the masons and snakes

Amongst us

So we can anarchize this world

To idealism

These material pagan idols

Jesus, You I won't be forgettin'

But if only the servants of the Illuminati

Would listen.

You celebrate holidays unwillingly! WHY?!?!?

I don't have the courage to get up and leave this room. I don't have the strength to get up and be bombarded with the red cliche of today. The bullshit of this so-called holiday but let the people seem to forget that caring more about teddy bears, cards, and candies won't cover up the shit you have to do today. Having one day in the year such as this Valentine's Day (Christmas, Memorial Day, etc) shouldn't be set aside just to celebrate one thing that we encounter everyday. Christmas now is more of a commerce holiday than it is a religious one in such. If you disagree, why are we opening gifts for ourselves to celebrate someone else's birthday? Christmas being the perfect time to have a great holiday...just in time for the year end clearance sales for these major stores owned by conglomerates such as Viacom. Selling all of the year's leftover product for a greater profit than holding onto the product for the new year when it becomes obsolete. Perfect timing, yeah?

Why is Memorial Day set aside as a day that we mourn those that have died for this country unjustly? Why can't we mourn and remember those that have died for this country everyday and not just set aside one day of the year to do so?

I just don't understand why people take the time to "celebrate" these things without truly really realizing why they do so. The media has for more of a greater influence in all of our lives than most of you think. The one day that we all wake up and all of our material possessions are destroyed or disappear will be the day anarchy will reign. That will be the day that people's third eyes' will begin to open. But, until this great day, the general masses will walk around with the media's "horse blinders" covering their third eyes' sight of introspection and visions of the world at large.

I hope and pray one day that the general public will really ask and question themselves on why they do the things they do unwillingly and how senseless the majority of the things we do and believe in are. This day that I talk of is almost upon us. In some shape, form, or fashion, we will all see the truth that we have been blinded from. A revolutionary hip hop artist, Immortal Technique said in a freestyle that "Capitalism being a religion and Satan is its god, we all walk around with idols we worship in our pockets and lives subconsciously." (I think I misquoted the lyrics, but whatever.) It's true! Maybe that day will come. Open up your eyes people before it's too late.

Check out these links:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third_eye

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Freemasons

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shriners

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Order_of_the_Eastern_Starhttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Masonic_Lodge