Let's talk about the things that have not changed since the last post I wrote on Sunday. I am going to bed extremely late and waking up late as well. I feel a bit disquieted and unhappy about my situation in life right now. The feeling of something stressing you out to the points of transient insanity is not the greatest feeling especially when there's nothing you can do about the stress causing factor 3,000 miles away from home. I need to find some means to relieve the stress, so that maybe tonight I will actually be able to receive a sufficient amount of sleep. I wake up after 8-10 hours of sleep and still feel like the tiresome slack that lied awake restless in his bed with his mind racing at 100 thoughts per minute. I know that getting my ass back into the gym would be a great way to relieve this stress. For some reason, sweating in excessive amounts during a strenuous workout always seems to keep my mind and body at ease. Yes...a hard workout in the gym is exactly what I need right now, so off I go.

I have been falling asleep as the 6AM Sun creeps through my apartment's generic blinds; I have been waking up to the midday Sun's blatant stare through my window. Already, I am an anchorite; I have fallen deeper in this state of mind where all is just so banausic and mundane. Nothing in my life seems to be going right; everything has fallen by the wayside. If this cliche wasn't at all worn-out and even more revolting to hear, nothing seems to have that luster or sheen of color. The fulgid glisten of the Earth's tone's (orange, blue, green, etc.) have been traded for my ephemeral colorblindness.

Suffocate me all you need, I won't breathe but it's o.k.
You'll be somewhere around me, and I won't need air.
-Armor For Sleep

If only things would change soon enough. If only the grays that have taken over my sight would be overcome with the ordinary beautiful hues of the world. What could cause such a dark and mundane moment in a twenty-two year old's life? The age when most are graduating from college and trying to find a balance in paying bills and their rent, but yet still longing for the semesters of years past when everyday was met with oblivion and carefree. Where did those days go?

It's Like MK Ultra Controlling Your Brain

The more and more I think about the Virginia Tech murders that occurred this morning, I draw my own conclusion that was not drawn from what I have been bombarded with on the television screens and computer screens on ABC, CNN, FOX, NBC, CBS, etc. networks. I don't believe that this individual that murdered so many people in today's premeditated act was alone on this murdering spree. And, I also don't believe that he was just an ordinary college student that had a break-up with a girlfriend that caused him to go on a killing spree on campus.

MK Ultra was a government run program that was used to brainwash particular civilians by sensory and auditory divestiture. I believe that the individual at Virginia Tech was a victim of this "program," and therefore was subjected to doing such a horrendous act on this damp and dark morning. The "failing of a class and break up of a girlfriend" was basically a media ploy to get the masses to fall for such propaganda. Think about it; how else would an engineering student at one pretty prestigious university in the rural area of Virginia get the professional training of murdering over thirty people in a small increment of time? It just makes complete and utter sense to me that this individual was under the MK Ultra program. The same way the marines and many of the military personnel are trained to become such savage killing machines is the same way that individuals are brainwashed during the MK Ultra experiments.

A bystander said that the killer was killing the victims "almost professionally," and you still believe he killed so many people with two handguns? Yeah..that's extremely viable in such of an event! Wake up, people! Don't let the media talking heads pull your mind around with this "he shot the whole campus up because his girlfriend left him" crap. It's much deeper than that; he was controlled by some group or entity.

Click the links below to learn more about MK Ultra and other forms of brainwashing:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mk_ultra

http://www.mindspring.com/~txporter/sec3.htm

http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/april2007/190407mindcontrolled.htm

Now what would cause someone to kill over thirty people then wound at least twenty-one others? What was going on in this person's life where they felt the need to walk into a dormitory and school of engineering building at the college, Virginia Tech University in Blacksburg, Virginia, and start firing an multitudinous number of rounds at other human beings that live, breathe, eat, sleep, cry, and smile just like the gunman does? This is when you know the end of times is near. Whomever your God maybe, you need to get closer to Him as soon as possible! We are living in truly chancy times and it is of the essence that the people of this Earth find some kind of solace within themselves and in their God. My prayers go out to the families and friends of the victims that were connected into this catastrophic and tragic event that took place this morning. I also pray that the gunman realize that he is in definite fault for what he has done to these innocent people. But, I am not one to judge; I am merely a bystander of this event from a desolate area hearing only of this news via Internet. I pray that all in this incident of the dead and of the wounded can have the strength to endure. Peace and blessing!

Click the link to read the article:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070416/ap_on_re_us/virginia_tech_shooting

Radio Video

Radio lyrics - Pitty Sing lyrics

Pitty Sing Music Videos

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"Radio" by Pitty Sing

This band's self-titled album is great!

Click below:
http://www.myspace.com/officialpittysing

The underground scene has always been seen by large mainstream record labels such as Atlantic, Arista, and Columbia as a threat. There actually are a certain large number of artists that could careless about being on MTV's number one requested show, TRL, or being in heavy rotation by one of Clear Channel's radio stations. The main problem I have with the commercial music scene is that the artists don't have complete artistic control of what they can produce on their albums. They have to go through A&R's and then a board at their record company before their music can even be heard by the masses. If the music that they want to produce isn't of a "bubble-gum pop" nature, then it generally won't be made public.

The mainstream music scene is entertainment; the underground (independent) music scene is art. It's sad how music is an element of art (such as sculpture, drama, or dance) but in the mainstream circuit, has become more of an entertainment ground to produce some of the most untalented people that call themselves "artists." Since when did shaking your ass in a video like the "infectiously" popular Pussycat Dolls become popular? Oh...yeah...that's right...I forgot! They only became popular because "sex sells!" The mainstream music motto of 'showing a little ass" can be seen in both genders of male and female.

The independent and commercial music scenes are polar opposite, but when people choose music saturated with sex, drugs, and violence just because it's the popular thing to do, that's utterly sad.

Spartan Workout

And you thought your workout routine was over-exerting your body. It's truly amazing that pushing your body to limits like this really does pay off.

Sid Vicious

"My Way (Frank Sinatra Cover)"



He was 22 years old when we died of an overdose in 1979. He was known as the innovator of punk rock.

She's a sexy little goddess, fashionably modest...
-Atmosphere

There are many reasons why it is hard for me to trust anyone. Even with the people in my family, I give them "half-assed" trust (if you know what I mean). It's always been a struggle for me to trust anyone (especially family) after realizing at the age of seventeen that the unthinkable can definitely become a reality with some of your closest people in your life. I have learned that I can trust only two people in my life: God and myself.

The only trust you have at the end of the day is within yourself and your God. You can not trust that any other human being will be there for you at your weakest state of mind or body. It's an act of self-preservation. It's hard not to take it personally; it's in our genetics to preserve one's self before others. There are particular individuals that will put another above their self in certain aspects or events through the train wreck of life, but in times of integral importance, they will put their self before anyone else.

In the beds we lay at night waiting to fall asleep alone; we all wish that we had another human being that we could put our imperforate trust in. But, it's not possible.

Reality television has become the new phenomenon of programming over the past 15 years. FOX's "COPS" was the very first reality TV show to be broad casted in the US in 1989. Almost 20 years later, we (as television viewers) are more obsessed with whose going to win FOX's"American Idol" or whose going to get voted out of the house of CBS' "Big Brother" than we are with our own lives. We schedule our lives around the broad casting schedule of these reality shows. And if you can't be there for the live broad casting of your favorite show...alas, there is the great invention of TiVo! There are people in this world that "can't live" with missing one episode of ABC's "Extreme Makeover" or the Bravo network's "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy." We feel disconnected when we are having water cooler talk at our jobs about the latest winner of CBS' "The Apprentice," and don't know
what Donald Trump said to Mike Travis (fictitious name) after he "fired" him.

We are consumed with this "reality" of normal people (such as ourselves) being broad casted on TV for the whole world to see. Do you honestly think that shows such VH1's "I Love New York" or "The Flava of Love" could possibly not be supposititious at all? Are you serious? Is it even viable that people could parade around
a numerous amount of producers, and television cameras
ignorantly making complete asses of themselves for their 15 minutes of fame? Sadly, YES!

We are more engrossed with what's happening on falsified productions of reality on the small screen than we are with our own realities in our own lives. We also live as characters on reality TV ourselves; the audience isn't millions of people in their homes laughing at our mishaps and problems though. The audience is the organizations formed by the government used to scan, scrutinize, and perlustrate our lives. Don't believe it, huh? Smile for the camera next time you are walking with your iPod blaring totally disconnected to your surroundings down Embarcadero in San Francisco, Melrose in Los Angeles, or 55th St. in New York.

No longer do we need to be consumed with the pseudo lives of actors on these "reality" TV shows; we need to be more worried about what we do in our everyday lives that's being broad casted to governmental firms to keep you disconnected to true reality.

So...I downloaded this album last week, and I finally got around to listening to it Friday. (Yeah, yeah, yeah...illegal, so what!) The very first time I heard anything about Brother Ali was on a song called "Cats Van Bags" on Atmosphere's "Seven's Travels" album. I was instantly interested into getting one of his albums, but I didn't get one until recently.

This album is decent. Brother Ali is a lyricist that can basically spit lyrics in the most profound and conscious ways, but overall, I wasn't blown away by this album. I am a music enthusiast (especially when it comes to underground hip hop and rock), therefore I wasn't too impressed with the album. Not to say take anything away from Brother Ali as an artist; it's just that this album was good, but not great. Songs such as "Faheem" and "Pedigree" were great attributes of Ali's musical work that helped to change somewhat of my perception of this album. More or less, he is a great emcee, but he seems much greater of an artist to feature on someone else's music rather than his own solo project.

This album has 14 songs, and even though I wasn't too blown away by the lyrical content or instrumental beats I would recommend "The Undisputed Truth" to any person looking to gain more of an underground taste to their music library.

Overall grade- 7.8